Sunday, March 02, 2008
Although I come from a very Asian immigrant family, complete with the language, the food, and the beliefs, I was essentially raised by (in terms of the identity I was indoctrinated with) white society since I went through grade school in the whitest of white and the richest of rich communities. For the longest time, whenever my parents talked to me or advised me about superstition or astrology, I politely listened and bobbled my head like a patient, listening daughter as I simultaneously wrote off their advice as crazy-talk in the same way that our culture does not explicitly ostracize but subtly walls off spiritual vegan yogic hippies as crazy people. Recently, though, I've met people who strongly believe in the ways that our bodies and minds are intimately connected to our lifestyles, to the natural world around us, and even to the universe in the most literal of ways. What we eat changes us; you can think of this change as a physiological one (involving different proteins and building blocks of amino acids being added to your body) or as a holistic one (involving different life energies being incorporated into your own). Either way, there's a change.
I've been skimming some astrology articles, intrigued by this new perspective of the world, which is increasingly gaining credibility in my mind. If we can be affected by our immediate surroundings, who's to say that we can't be affected by the energies of the planets and the stars? After all, we are but infinitesimal dots in comparison to the mammoth planets and stars orbiting in the sky above us. Anyways, all of this is to preface some thoughts about the way in which I love and trust people or, rather, am skeptical about giving my love to and trusting people. At CafeAstrology.com, you can get a natal birth chart report by plugging in your name, where you were born, and your birthday. Basic stuff. Excerpts of mine:
"She is honest, reserved, circumspect, honorable and strong-willed. Quietly ambitious within the realms of the possible, she likes and takes on responsibility. She can work in the social domain.
Weaknesses: a sometimes bitter and mistrustful mind.
Capricorns can sometimes be rather lonely people, although they rarely let it show. They are often a little reserved—even standoffish. This is generally because they value all things practical, and they'll seldom wear their emotions on their sleeves, unless they have a particularly flamboyant Moon sign. This is a sign that is surely the most resourceful of the zodiac. To some, Capricorns come across as unimaginative, but they can be enormously creative when it comes to the material world. They are generally very capable people with a strong sense of tradition and responsibility."
Reading things like this make me take a step back and help me re-realize my personality so that I can better deal with things. For example, if I'm being very standoffish towards someone I love, remembering that I am naturally mistrustful of people--even people who I've known for a long long time--helps me bring myself back down to earth. "What am I annoyed about? Is that rational? Am I just being overly mistrustful?"
Try it out: you might find out some surprising things!